중년의 고백

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프롤로그-마음이아름다우니세상이아름다워라·············4
추천사································6

중년이라고사랑을모르겠는가····················14
중년의여름밤····························16
중년의하루·····························18
내가벌써중년인가·························20
중년엔당신에게이런사랑이고싶습니다··············22
중년의아름다움은깨달음에있습니다···············24
중년의갈증·····························26
중년의나이로살다보면·······················30
중년의나이,가끔삶이고독할때·················32
중년의삶이힘겨울때························34
중년의당신,무엇을꿈꾸는가····················36
중년엔이런삶이었으면좋겠습니다·················38
중년의고백····························40
중년의당신을사랑하고있다면···················48
중년의밤이깊어갈때························51
중년에아름다운당신을사랑합니다················52
중년엔가슴에서꽃이피어요····················54
중년의나이에도어머니가그립습니다················56
중년에맞이하는어버이날·····················58
중년의삶이아름다운것은······················60
중년의독백,나도누구처럼·····················62
중년에만난당신을사랑하고·····················64
중년의당신에게띄우는편지·····················66
중년에잊을수없는당신·······················68
중년의당신,오늘힘드십니까····················70
중년의명절····························72
중년의추석·····························74
중년의보름달····························76
중년의가을밤···························78
중년이기에가질수없었던너···················80
중년에쓸쓸함이찾아오면·····················82
중년이쓸쓸해질때·························84
중년의비는그리움인가외로움인가·················86
비가오면중년의가슴에도비가내리네··············88
중년의가슴에봄바람이불면·····················90
중년의가슴에사랑이꽃필때····················93
중년의가슴에눈물이흐를때····················94
중년엔이렇게살고싶습니다·····················96
중년에찾아온당신··························98
중년의꽃·····························100
중년의나무····························102
중년의가슴에1월이오면·····················104
중년의가슴에2월이오면·····················106
중년의가슴에3월이오면·····················109
중년의가슴에4월이오면·····················110
중년의가슴에5월이오면·····················112
중년의가슴에6월이오면·····················114
중년의가슴에7월이오면·····················116
중년의가슴에8월이오면·····················118
중년의가슴에9월이오면·····················121
중년의가슴에10월이오면·····················122
중년의가슴에11월이오면·····················124
중년의가슴에12월이오면·····················126
중년이라고이러면안됩니까····················128
중년이라고그리움을모르겠습니까·················130
중년에사랑이온다면어쩌겠습니까················132
중년에마시는술··························134
중년에부는바람··························136
사랑은중년이라고피할수없다··················138
중년이라고사랑을하면안됩니까·················140
중년의나이에도··························143
중년의어느날···························144
중년의그사랑에는상처를피한흔적이있다············146
중년에떠나는여행·························148
중년에도사랑을꿈꾼다······················150
중년에사랑이찾아온다면·····················152
중년에아름다운당신·······················154
중년의눈물····························156
중년에도봄바람이분다······················158
중년의외로움···························160
중년의꿈·····························162
중년의당신,어디쯤서있는가··················164
중년에당신을사랑한죄······················172
중년의회상····························174
중년의바다,그바다의여름····················178
중년의외로움으로내리는비····················180
중년에만난당신을사랑하고····················182
중년의그리움처럼비는내리고···················184
중년의그리움반외로움반으로비가내립니다···········186
중년엔이런사랑을하고싶다···················188
어느날의비와중년························192
중년의가슴에찬바람이불면····················194
중년의당신을잊을수없어요···················196
중년의가을····························198
중년의당신이울어버린사랑····················200
중년의가을,그리움이밀려오면··················202
중년에마시는커피한잔의그리움·················204
중년의가슴에낙엽이지면·····················206
당신은중년에핀아름다운꽃입니다················208
중년의세월····························210
겨울밤,중년의쓸쓸한고백····················213
중년의겨울밤1편·························214
중년의겨울밤2··························216
중년의당신을사랑해도될까요···················218
중년에당신과사랑을했습니다···················221
중년의당신이아름다울때·····················224
중년에사랑해버린당신······················226
중년엔누구나외로운별인가····················231
중년의사랑,불륜인가로맨스인가·················232

권선복행복에너지대표시·······················234
출간후기······························238

화려하지는않지만아름다운그이름‘중년’
중년이라는이름아래담아내는생에대한따뜻한찬가

사람들은흔히인생에서가장눈부시고아름다운시기는‘청춘’이라고들말한다.물론신체적능력과외모가가장탁월한20대청춘이야말로우리인생에있어가장환하게빛이나는시기인것은사실이다.이때문에많은사람들이짧은청춘이끝나면인생에서빛날수있는때가끝났다고생각하며자조적기분에빠지곤한다.하지만인생에서빛날수있는시기가과연짧은청춘의시기밖에없을까?평균수명이늘어나고4,50대이후에도많은이들이사회생활을활발히이어가는요즘에는,과연진정한청춘이란무엇인가하고되돌아보게된다.

이채시인의제8시집『중년의고백』은노을이물드는가을날들판을수놓은코스모스처럼,어딘지수줍은모습이지만한편으로는당당한중년의고백들을담아내며많은사람들의응원과공감을얻어낸바있다.그리고시간이지나2018년7월,개정판으로다시독자들앞에선보이는이책을통해독자들은중년이되어야만비로소얻을수있는깨달음이따스한감동으로심강깊숙이퍼져나가는것을느낄수있을것이다.

저자는“젊었을땐젊음인줄모르고/하루해짧도록걸어왔건만/이제,생의중턱에서서/저산을바라봐야할나이인가//막연하게살기보다/분명하게살고싶었다/지란지교의인연들과/꽃처럼별처럼살고싶었다”(「내가벌써중년인가」일부)라며중년이면누구나느낄법한허무와아쉬움에대해솔직히털어놓는다.하지만이내“학문은배우고익히면될것이나/연륜은반드시밥그릇을비워내야합니다/그러기에나이는그저먹는것이아니지요//중년의아름다움은성숙입니다/성숙은깨달음이요/깨달음엔지혜를만나는길”(「중년의아름다움은깨달음에있습니다」일부)이있음을깨닫고,“마음먹어도갈수없는길있더이다/가자고작정해도못갈길있더이다/가다가다다못가고주저앉을때/긴그림자로누운노송이나되어/어느여름날당신의그늘이될수있다면/어느겨울날세월의바람막이될수있다면/그것으로나의의미는충분하다”(「중년엔이런삶이었으면좋겠습니다」일부)는작은바람을나지막이전한다.뜨거웠던생의여름은이제다지나갔지만“마주하는눈빛으로/아끼며,사랑하며함께열매로익어가는계절입니다/날마다정이든사람의손을잡고/슬프지않아도눈물이날때면/눈물의무게를서로의눈빛으로덜어주는계절”(「중년의가을」일부)인중년에맞이하는삶과사랑은그어느시절보다성숙하고아름다울수있는지를온기어린목소리로독자에게전하고있다.

삶이라는것은어느시기에서나그시기만이가질수있는아름다움이있다.각시기에반드시보고느낄수있는아름다운삶의풍경이따로있다.그렇기에나이먹어감을서글퍼하던중년들이스스로의삶을다시한번돌아보고,인생을제대로즐기게되는계기를책『중년의고백』을통해얻게되기를기대해본다.