우리의 춤은 변하여 슬픔이 되고 : 고난 중에 근심과 애통을 더하다

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서울신학대학교학부와대학원에서신학을공부했고,연세대학교대학원에서구약학으로석사학위를받았다.현재는오후다섯시교회를섬기고있으며,유튜브오늘의구약공부에서주강사로활동중이다.그리스도인들이성경을볼때스스로생각하고고민하는건강한신앙을가질수있도록다양한방면에서돕고있다.또한신학과신앙을연결하는일과성경말씀을삶으로살아내는일에관심이많다.

저서로는구약시대를시작으로신구약중간기를지나신약시대와초기기독교에이르기까지사탄이라는존재는어떻게수용되었는지,축귀를어떻게이해해야하는지에관한내용이담긴『네이름이무엇이냐』(이레서원,2023)가있다.

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“우리의마음에는기쁨이그쳤고우리의춤은변하여슬픔이되었사오며”(애5:15)

출간을앞두고잠시제목을고민했습니다.처음에는독특하고자극적인제목을고민했습니다.검색이많이되는소위‘키워드’를찾아보기도했고,에세이나자기개발서와같이독특하고눈에띄는제목이많은분야들을검색해보기도했습니다.하지만생각만큼잘떠오르지않았습니다.그러다‘독자가자신의비참함을마주하고거기에근심과애통이더하여지게하자’는출간의도를떠올리며,그의도가담긴제목을찾아야겠다는생각에다시본문과원고로눈을돌렸습니다.그때만난제목이바로‘우리의춤은변하여슬픔이되고’입니다.

애가에등장하는고통의상황은이루말할수없이비참합니다.성전은정복당했고그안의모든것이약탈당했습니다(1-2장).어린아이들이고통을당하고,배고픔에못이겨엄마의품에서죽음을맞이합니다(2:11-12).심지어굶주림을견디지못한부모가자신의자녀를먹는(2:20)상황에까지이릅니다.칼에죽는것이배고픔에죽는것보다낫다고(4:9)할만큼그들의상황은잔인하고참담했습니다.

이런처참한처지에애통하며탄식하는것은지극히당연합니다.아마처음에는영문도모른채그저당황해하며분하고억울한마음에분노하는탄식이었을지도모릅니다.하지만지금애가를부르는시인의마음에는이것이나의죄때문이라는인식이자리잡기시작합니다.“내죄악의멍에를그의손으로묶고얽어”(1:14),“내가그의명령을거역하였도다”(1:18),“나의반역이심히크니이다”(1:20)와같은시인의고백은3장에이르러“여호와의분노의매로말미암아고난당한자는나로다”(3:1)에까지이릅니다.

애가에는희망에찬결론이없습니다.그저울부짖을뿐입니다.계속해서탄원하며하나님의긍휼을구합니다.그리고마침내애가의시인은하나님께자신의죄를고백합니다.이후이스라엘은뿔뿔이흩어지고하나님께서는수백년간침묵하십니다.대신이스라엘이자신들이누구인지를올바로인식하고하나님이어떠한분이신지를다시금깨닫게하는것으로그들에게응답하셨습니다.이책을통해독자가자신의비참함을마주하고거기에근심과애통이더해지기를바라는이유가바로여기에있습니다.자신에게애통하고탄식할수있음이야말로우리에게베푸시는하나님의은혜입니다.

자신의슬픔이인터넷과SNS에공유되어단몇분내로수십수백명에게위로받을수있는놀랍도록긍정적인시대입니다.슬픔이그어느때보다빠르게휘발되는시대입니다.희망과긍정으로가득찬우리들에게애통과탄식이머물자리는없습니다.그저이책에담긴애가의신학과저자가안내하는묵상의방법과흐름이,우리가하나님께로향하는애통과탄식을품는데작은도움이되길바랄뿐입니다.아울러개인의기록공간을마련해두었으니그곳을자신의해석과묵상과기도로채워보시기를권면합니다.독자들이애가를묵상하며애통과탄식의자리를만들고그곳을하나님께서주시는평안과안식으로채울수있기를소망합니다.